It's pretty miserable here at the moment. I'm 58 years old and I used to be quite well off. But as so many entrepreneurs have found out I didn't have a big enough bankroll to take the hits.
And after 7 years of struggling and juggling we hit the bottom. Broke and currently about to be homeless again, debts to family and friends and the next job several months away still. And today I'm really down - though possibly a little more buoyant than my wife who has had to deal with a lot of the rubbish and who didn't cause most of it.
I have a case of the "Miseries"
But as yet I'm not in despair. I'm not hungry or thirsty - though I have lost weight cuz I've been in no position to splurge of late. I will have a roof again in a day or two courtesy of friends, again, and there is a project in the pipeline. There is no reason to despair. And like so many entrepreneurs before me we will begin to climb out of the hole soon. My wife hasn't abandoned me nor even suggested the possibility - she seems to believe in my ability to dig us out. She is managing to cope with the slings and arrows with equanimity though she's patently very worried.
But to my point. There are many who don't get the difference between being broke, as we are, and being poor as are so many in the world and we are not. There are possibilities for us and with a little patience and some luck we'll be OK. We're NOT going to die from dehydration or from something nasty in the only available water supply. We are not going to starve anytime soon. We won't die from some horrible disease or from the want of a few coppers worth of medicine. Hell, we probably won't even lose access to the Internet!
So... a brief bout of feeling sorry for myself is OK on a bad day. But despair is so far from the table I can't even get a focus on the MIGHT be's. Thank goodness for the future.
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